Even when I can afford now, when my children ask me to buy them appropriately, often my first reaction is my heart pounding. My accompanying thought goes…what if they ask in logarithmic proportions at this rate?
Whenever I open up to my sponsor, even if in bits and pieces, she fits the jigsaw of my mind in a jiffy. At other times, I think of her and my whole system is renewed to a baseline. She takes me in within myself in the fastest route and so she is my God of understanding on earth.
It is not as much as learning to trust another as it is with respect to trusting my instinct and decisions with regard to financial matters.
As I sit to write this, more muck is being removed than I ever thought.
To begin with, I have not sat on a daily basis to contemplate, which is a part of the chart planner so as to facilitate filling in the details of the day.
Subject: Difficulty in managing finance
My U/D has been I don’t know head or tail of finance.
Even though my investments are in place, I worry constantly.